Month: July 2001

Pet Peeves

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(part one of an occasional series)

Modern cars. The cars we have today are advanced, they have airbags, power steering, ABS, EDC, FDA, CIA and FBI (well maybe not quite all those…) yet they don’t seem to have any indicators.

You may be familiar with this particular invention. It started as a little flag that popped out from the side of the car and signalled your intention to move either left or right (depending which side the flag was on..). They moved on to become orange blinking lights. However it seems that the latest cars don’t have any, so please be aware that the next time you pull out 3 feet in front of me, when I’m doing 70 mph on the motorway, that I am not, despite popular belief, PSYCHIC!!!

Balancing

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Downward spiral. This week sucked. That’s the best way to put it. In this age of instant communication we are getting the sum amount of squat from our bosses. (Ohh and if any of you guys from work read this, feel free to point them here, I’ve said it so many times now I’m blue in the face). I feel defeated. I don’t feel like being ‘up for the challenge’. But maybe that’s just today (well this week..).

House moving is become stressful. The current tenant of the house was away so we couldn’t get in to measure for carpets. We wanted them down on Monday the 30th July. They take two weeks to order and they haven’t been measured up yet. You do the math. All in all not a very good week. I know I can control this, I know that next week will be better because I will make it so, but bottom line is… this week sucked.

Positives: nephew is better, parents had a good holiday, and Louise and I grow closer and more content every day. Focus on that, and life seems good. Well life is good, just not this week.

Grumpy

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Wednesday. In two weeks time we will be fully moved into our new house. It can’t come soon enough. Everything that we disliked about our current lodgings, the decor, the lack of parking, the noise from the road, even the minor annoyances like the shower being too hot in the mornings, and that damn squeak in the bedroom floorboards, are becoming major bugbears. My propensity for swearing seems to be increasing in direct proportion to the falling number of days we have left (eh? aww you know what I mean). I’ve been trying to figure out why.

We never got this annoyed and hacked off before, and you’d think we should be saying: “Oh well, only a week or so to go and we’ll be out of it anyway…”. But we’re not. So I apologise to everyone if I seem to be in a bad mood for the next couple of weeks. That’s because I am.

Childlike

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Glasgow Fair Monday, there are small wispy clouds dotting the blue sky, it’s sunny and warm. I’m working. What is wrong with this picture?

Really need a holiday, and chance to re-focus and gather my thoughts. The last two months have been crazy, lots of change at work, lots of change at home (new house). So much going on. I’ve got a list of things I want to do on my desk. Basic routine stuff much of it, defrag my PC, clean it out at bit, install some new progs I’ve had sitting about for ages. Start work on a couple of projects, convert my CD database to a new format, etc etc. Unfortunately I’m having to be all grown up and take care of things like mortgages, life assurance, wills etc. I wish I didn’t have any responsibility, life would be so much easier, but I’m just not that selfish (Yes I am selfish but not THAT much..).

Do you wish you could be a kid again?

Wellbeing

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My employers have started a Wellness scheme. All the (voluntary) participants have to undertake a physical examination, which will gain us a rating and a set of goals to achieve personal ‘wellness’.

What intrigues me is how the mind and body are so inextricably linked. If I am physically tired and sore, I don’t think straight, and don’t function 100%. If I am really tired I get emotional. I get a lump in my throat at the slightest schmaltzy thing on T.V.

I also heard an article on the radio about a primary school that has introduced T’ai Chi at their morning assembly. The aim is to ensure the kids are fit and healthy and can concentrate and learn in class.

I had a couple of weeks off from football (well exercise in general), and getting back to it I noticed I had regained my drive, my work ethic. Is this the definition of ‘wellbeing’?

How can this be? Wellbeing is, by my definition, a contentment of mind. A happiness in your own space, your own place and definition in the world. Friends of mine have been through a lot recently, and as they make their way back to happiness they will establish their own sense of wellbeing, far different from mine, or yours. This wellbeing is not linked or related to physical fitness, or attributes. It is a strength of mind.

Like every strength, it can be exercised. You can practise and train it to perform to you advantage, and with it you can build an alliance strong enough to get you through anything. Anything.

So take heart, wellbeing is a state of mind. You can control it, you can alter it in any direction you desire.

Patterned snooze

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Can anyone help me figure out how much sleep I really need? A ‘typical’ night for me is to get to bed at about 11:30 pm and get up at 7:00 am. Last night I was in bed by 10:00 pm and I’m STILL knackered.

Hence the reason I am questioning my thoughts at the moment. Is it because I’m tired that I don’t seem to care? Is it laziness that stops me doing anything? Again I promised to do some stuff from someone, and again, I’ve not even contemplated starting it. Is it any wonder I run short of friends. Any wonder that I don’t seem to ‘connect’ to people any more? Am I headed back down that path again? Or is it all just an adjustment of sleeping patterns. The new ‘healthy’ eating campaign kicking in? Who should I be asking for answers (aside from me, I don’t have any). Flat mood, doing something so as not to do anything.