“No I can’t say”
“No – wish I could but I really can’t”
I hate that, almost as much as I hate it when you eventually find out what that person wouldn’t tell you and realise that when they said that you probably didn’t want to know, they were right.
Edinburgh was good, and well timed (even if I didn’t realise it at the time). Met up with a good friend, so good to be able to pick up where we left off, chatting like it hasn’t really been 6 months since we last saw each other.
Flying to Dublin tomorrow and staying until Sunday. So I’ll see you then, and yes I’ll give you all the gossip – even if I already have a good idea what the main topic of conversation will be…
Dublin on Thursday. Edinburgh tomorrow (should be v.interesting if it works out). That’s about it for the moment. See you later.
Stress free zone continuing, and it seems that others are reaching the same zone, still can’t really pin down why, but I’m not gonna argue! Maybe it’s the buildup to the company kickoff event in Dublin? Maybe it’s the realisation that I am not (or at least don’t think I am) being judged professionally anymore. I know it’s an ongoing task, but I think I’ve done enough to prove myself. Which reminds me, still got 10 days holiday from last year to take… hmmm
Strange evolution – I’m currently reaching a stress free zone. Not sure if that is a good thing, and I know that sounds daft, but I fear I may relax so far I start speaking my mind. Telling people what I think, of them, of they way they are…wouldn’t really be right, I’m still figuring out who I am, and yes I am resigned to the fact that I will never have a definitive answer, although even that isn’t strictly true, the definition of me is an ever changing/evolving set of emotions that will forever be tied to the moment. Not as romantic as it sounds, trust me.
Now where was I? Ohh yesss, stress free. Happy, working hard but not too hard, and actually getting closer to an even keel. It’s a Wonderful Life (except I’m not sure who my Clarence is…)
Actually I’ve got a very good idea what that next thread will be… can’t say too much at the moment, don’t want to frighten anyone, but let’s just say that they were warned, and I can’t be bothered fighting it anymore. Hey, just realised you are the first person I’ve told, promise me you won’t tell anyone from my company.
Another day, another dollar – N2Self: who said that? – work is getting predictably silly again, looks like some fun days ahead – still I’ll be in Dublin by Thursday next week. This is my current thread, and I’m gonna grasp on to it, until the next one comes along, which will be a trip to the U.S. of A at the end of April, after that.. God knows…