Category: Life
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Dear Jen
A year has passed since you left us. I have been dreaming of you lately, odd childhood moments all smushed together into an incoherent ramble that I awake from feeling confused and sad. A year of grief rolling over my bones, picking at my skin. Jagged and sharp in shape and form. I am trying…
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Merry Christmas
Whether you celebrate, or not. Are with family, or not. To those who have difficult relationships with your family, those who are struggling, give yourself permission just to survive this week. Be kind to yourself. It’s just another day after all. Or not. I hope this festive day finds you well, or well enough.
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Saying goodbye to Alan
I wrote this a few months ago, I had planned on posting it but never did. I think, if I’m being honest, I was just done with funerals and death and dark questions around WHY certain people died. Alan’s funeral was on 30th June this year. But I realise now that I should still share…
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Between
I am not currently employed. I will be again soon, and I’m excited to start a fresh at a new place but, for now, I am a man of leisure. It does not suite me. I feel somewhat conflicted most days of how to spend my time and I entirely blame my parents for this.…
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Missing Mumsie
It all started with The Crystal Maze on Channel 4. It was 1990, and we only had four TV channels to choose from and The Crystal Maze was a fun game show. In it, the host (Richard O’Brien) would take the contestants through different zones, and they’d have to partake in different categories of games;…
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The Morbid Truth
I will consider myself lucky if I see my son reach the age of 35. That’s 33 years away and by that point I’ll be 83. I will consider myself lucky if I see my son reach the age of 30. That’s 28 years away and by that point I’ll be 78. I say this…