Paused

I started this blog, this website, purely to see if I could. It wasn’t really about the writing/publishing/conversation at that time, it was only about me. I’d already started jotting down my thoughts (for various reasons) and despite the rambling nature of them I did find that it helped. The process of vocalising and externalising your thoughts and emotions is a compelling reason to write.

It’s just the show off in me that continues to blog.

So why the sudden introspection? Well, as ever, that big thing called LIFE has given me cause to focus and ponder and consider. I’ve just had the sad news that my friend’s Dad has suddenly passed away. It brings back memories in a sudden rush, still painful and raw three years on, sharp edges that catch on my skin, dragging me open, emotions bubbling and bleeding out.

Such pain is personal and distinct, but one day at a time we will get past this to the next hurdle. Life always goes on.

I’ll be back in a bit.

6 Comments

  1. Peggy said:

    I’m sorry your freind’s dad died and I’m sorry that it opened a wound that you thought was starting to get better. Hang in there buddy!

    October 9, 2008
  2. Lyle said:

    Absolutely what she said.

    Fully understand the pause, and can’t blame you – always good to have a break, and all that. Although sometimes it can be nice to have somewhere to brain-dump those thoughts, too.

    Anyway, you want a vent, you know where I is.

    October 9, 2008
  3. Ian's Mum said:

    You have started me off now and I thought I was ok after 2 years. Gordon, just remember him fondly and often and be there for your friend he will need your support longer than you think, and enjoy your birthday.

    October 10, 2008
  4. Z said:

    It’s also the friendliness in you that prompts you to continue to blog isn’t it? You’re not showing off, you are speaking to people who have found you and like you and enjoy what you write.

    I’m so sorry to hear about your friend’s Dad and I know, grief never goes away but just is papered over until a reminder comes. Take as long as you have to, we’ll still be here. xx

    October 11, 2008
  5. Elle said:

    Condolences on the loss. Come back soon xx

    October 11, 2008
  6. Blue Witch said:

    People don’t cease to exist just because they are in a different dimension/plane/layer – call it what you will – now.

    Thinking of you.

    October 14, 2008

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