Where I am at

I cannot believe I’ve not written about my trip to Singapore!

And I’m not going to, as I’ve yet to post my photos to Flickr so I’ll wait until I’ve done that.

That said, I’ve been busy since I got back, spending a few days in Newcastle at a conference, and the rest of the time trying not to be ill (and failing).

So it’s only really the past couple of days I’ve finally felt back to my usual self and started to get things back on track. It feels a bit odd, as I approach my 39th year on this planet, that I’m still ‘finding’ myself (and that sounds a bit new age wank but it is what it is!) but it’s true.

The past few years have been wonderful, horrible, amazing, and sad but the past is in the past so I’m looking forward more and more these days, mostly because I feel that I can now.

Where does that future take me? I’ve no idea. Professionally I’ll be assessing things come April next year, personally… well here are a couple of links which cover two areas I’m taking an increasing interest in:

  • Poly Means Many – There are many aspects of polyamory. Each month seven bloggers – ALBJAn Open BookDelightfully QueerMore Than NuclearPost Modern SleazeRarely Wears Lipstick, and The Boy With The Inked Skin – will write about their views on one of them. This project is called Poly Means Many, a name which was inspired by our varied views and also the definition of the word polyamory.
  • Buddhism A-Z – will consist of 26 posts (listed below) proceeding alphabetically through some of the things that Buddhism means to me and the ways I feel it speaks as acutely as ever to modern life. It will not be comprehensive. I couldn’t possibly, and won’t even try, to do more than scratch the surface.

Yes, the two topics are somewhat linked (by the fact that one person is involved with both projects, and because there are parallels between the two that I’ve drawn in my head) and, along with my continued efforts to improve my health and wellbeing, I find myself at the point of redefining who am I.

It’s unlikely to be a radical change, but as I hinted at in my previous post, more and more I find myself looking for things which will (in my opinion) enhance the ‘me’ I want to be.

I don’t have a fixed image of my future self but it’s slowly taking shape, And even though I know that that process won’t ever stop (it’s part of who I am to want to improve) the process is definitely the important part of my journey.