bookmark_borderWee sis

My sister is at university, achieving what I never did (yes I’m a dropout). I’m so proud of her, and love her so much, it hurts to hear her bad news. She may have to alter the direction of her course as she can’t get to do one of the modules she really wanted to do. And I’m powerless to help her. I reassure myself that she is smart, kind and will have a good life no matter what it throws at her, the attitude she has is a gift, and it will get her through most things.

But I just want to give her a hug.

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bookmark_borderWellbeing

My employers have started a Wellness scheme. All the (voluntary) participants have to undertake a physical examination, which will gain us a rating and a set of goals to achieve personal ‘wellness’.

What intrigues me is how the mind and body are so inextricably linked. If I am physically tired and sore, I don’t think straight, and don’t function 100%. If I am really tired I get emotional. I get a lump in my throat at the slightest schmaltzy thing on T.V.

I also heard an article on the radio about a primary school that has introduced T’ai Chi at their morning assembly. The aim is to ensure the kids are fit and healthy and can concentrate and learn in class.

I had a couple of weeks off from football (well exercise in general), and getting back to it I noticed I had regained my drive, my work ethic. Is this the definition of ‘wellbeing’?

How can this be? Wellbeing is, by my definition, a contentment of mind. A happiness in your own space, your own place and definition in the world. Friends of mine have been through a lot recently, and as they make their way back to happiness they will establish their own sense of wellbeing, far different from mine, or yours. This wellbeing is not linked or related to physical fitness, or attributes. It is a strength of mind.

Like every strength, it can be exercised. You can practise and train it to perform to you advantage, and with it you can build an alliance strong enough to get you through anything. Anything.

So take heart, wellbeing is a state of mind. You can control it, you can alter it in any direction you desire.

bookmark_borderPatterned snooze

Can anyone help me figure out how much sleep I really need? A ‘typical’ night for me is to get to bed at about 11:30 pm and get up at 7:00 am. Last night I was in bed by 10:00 pm and I’m STILL knackered.

Hence the reason I am questioning my thoughts at the moment. Is it because I’m tired that I don’t seem to care? Is it laziness that stops me doing anything? Again I promised to do some stuff from someone, and again, I’ve not even contemplated starting it. Is it any wonder I run short of friends. Any wonder that I don’t seem to ‘connect’ to people any more? Am I headed back down that path again? Or is it all just an adjustment of sleeping patterns. The new ‘healthy’ eating campaign kicking in? Who should I be asking for answers (aside from me, I don’t have any). Flat mood, doing something so as not to do anything.

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bookmark_borderWeekender

Quiet weekend. Relaxed. Did some packing (27th July can’t come quick enough now). Spent Saturday wandering round shops and garden centres (exciting, huh..) dreaming about our new garden, and what we are going to do, we figure we’ll need to get about 3 acres to fit in the pool, basketball court, etc etc.

We also rented three movies, the type we never really got around to seeing at the cinema.

1. Unbreakable: Hmmmm, strange, watchable but strange.

2. Girl, Interrupted: Excellent, it’s been a long time since I’ve seen Winona Ryder in anything and I’d forgotten how good she is. Angelina Jolie was, as she was rewarded, mesmerising, playing the powerful yet powerless Lisa.

3. High Fidelity: disappointing after the book, but still an easy going, watchable film. John Cusack is his routinely excellent self, but still gives me the impression that he is waiting for ‘the’ script. Like he is holding something back. It’s almost like he is… acting. Does that make sense?