Dammit

Was planning on getting to bed early. Forgot to wash my footie stuff from last night…dammit, dammit, dammit.
I’m in an unusually crap, narky mood this evening. Not sure why, although I could pitch a few hundred reasons, I think I’m just in a crap mood because I want to be in one.

Sounds odd, but to be honest I’ve gone through the reasons (the usual ones, and any others I can grasp at) and none really hold enough sway. Mind you I’ve been getting pissed off at myself recently. Need to develop some more integrity. I get the feeling that I’m gonna need it soon, depending what happens I may have to stick to my principles rather than take the easy option. Hopefully someone out there kinda gets what I mean, I’m not sure I do.

Actually I know someone gets it, we’ve been talking about it on and off for a while, so that person knows where I’m coming from…DAMN it’s hard to write this stuff and preserve anonymity…LOL