Random burblings since 1999
Kinda up and down days.
Work is work, and socially things are the same. Guilt kicks in as I realise we have still to visit S since she dropped her sprog…
I get the feeling it’s gonna be another hard week. Yearly review at work promises to be fun/disappointing/annoying/liberating/disappointing. Hmmm, disappointing twice… that can’t be good.
ANOTHER sunny weekend, and a sad goodbye (well more of an au revoir). My Aunt & Uncle are emigrating to Oz, which only gives us another reason why we will have to start saving and get there…
There has also been a change over the last week or so, I’ve gotten much more serious about things, much more critical. Not sure yet if it is a bad thing, only time will tell.
That’s it, I’m gonna stop surfing (the web, not the water…not that I have ever tried surfing (on water, I do surf the web)).
I’m trying to redesign this site – ignoring the fact that I haven’t written anything for it in over a month (I don’t count this stuff, hopefully neither do you) – and I keep getting great ideas, but I still look at my site and go… BLEUCH.
Is it just me? Does everyone rate their own sites the same way? Is every other website better?
Man I hate working when the weather’s this good. I also hate the blister I have on my foot. I hate the bills that come in, I hate… well I’m just so pissed off and in such a “aww screw this!” mood that I pretty much hate everything.
Except that’s not really true, I need a holiday… I need to spend sometime NOT thinking about work, and relaxing properly.
Just realised – that’s the first time I’ve used THAT word in this website, but no I’m not apologising, sometimes you need to say it!
I need to be more aggressive, I’m getting left behind for being too nice, not demanding enough. Maybe I should change careers, I would love to work with animals, or anything more rewarding than what I do now. I am soooo hacked off with work right now. I’m not sure if it’s just my usual – I want it all – mood, or whether I have a legitimate right to be pissed off.
Actually scratch that. I don’t care whether I have the right or not. Fuck it.