Tag: REALLY

All I want

Sniglets (via mybluehouse) contains words for those little things in life that currently don’t have an official noun, verb or adjective attached to them. I’m especially glad to find that other people have a Negatile too, and are also aware of Telletiquette. Tee hee.

In other news, I’m really, really, REALLY down and hacked off with my work at the moment. The most frustrating thing is knowing that:
a. it’s not really anyone’s fault (no-one to point the finger at)
b. there’s no short term fix so I’ll just have to grin and bear it.

However the atmosphere and pervading sense of ‘I told you so x months ago’ is understandably (I think) annoying. I’ve spent the last hour or so trying to think up positives and I’m glad to say there are a few, but I will have to deal with the negatives first. Roll on tomorrow morning.

I often wonder if my pessimistic nature has held me back. I’m sure it has in one way or another and recent events seem inclined to back up that theory. No matter how often I tell myself to be more positive it seems fate, and my own personality is stacked against me. So tomorrow I will go into work and be positive, work to find a way around things and confront some obvious facts. If I can get a couple of things shifted I will be a much happier person. And that’s my only goal in life, to be happy. Not too much to ask for is it?

Dietary

SXSW Interactive. Everyone seems to be having fun (check my links page, pick a link and go there, if they are at SXSW you will know all about it…). Which is good as I must admit it did slightly worry me, all those geeks away from their computers, interacting, socialising with other people. Could’ve been a disaster waiting to happen πŸ˜‰

Made it to the gym this morning at 7 a.m. only to find a notice telling me the water would be off between 8 – 10. Very annoying. Why not 9 – 11, when the people who do go in early will probably be at work? Still I got about 45 mins so that’s better than nothing, and the walk to work takes about 15 mins, so I suppose in total it’s not too bad. Especially considering that a few weeks ago I wouldn’t have been doing ANY exercise at all.

Whilst I was walking I was thinking about all the differing pieces of advice I’ve been given, read and pondered on myself. Who to believe?

My brother-in-laws girlfriend is a nutrionist (nutrionalist?) and has been helpful, I’ve read of low-carb diets, and Louise is currently on a low-fat diet, and the government is constantly telling us to eat this, avoid that, so I’ve devised my own diet which you can all follow.

Eat what you want in moderation.
Have fruit instead of chocolate.
Don’t deny yourself if you REALLY want something, just have less.

Simple. 23 lbs in 8 weeks for me so far, so it MUST be working.

Annoying

It’s annoying sometimes, isn’t it – the way you want to do so much, but seem incapable of doing any of it. I annoy myself constantly, and catch myself frequently promising things I can’t deliver. Regular updates to this site for one! (but hey, I never promised that…did I?)

It relates back to plans and promises, and seems an endless circle. Each time I promise anything I get two, sometimes three, steps into it, and stop. I’ll spend less time on the PC – two weeks later I’m back to the usual 1 a.m. stints. I’ll go the gym…tomorrow…I’ll get better organised..well actually that ones not going too badly.

The main thing I have to learn, I think, is to realise who am I, what I am like, and stop trying to adjust. Compromise is one thing, and there is a fineline between the two. At the moment, the way I’m thinking, a compromise isn’t too bad, but I’m beginning to despise trying to adjust.

I kicked off the new year in fine style – ready to go, bubbling over with enthusiasm. Now I’m back round again, back to that familiar place. Exercise would help, it helps clear the mind, but I haven’t gone to T’ai Chi, nor found basketball. The gym at my work mocks me as I walk past it, everyday.

I know by this time next week I will be getting annoyed at myself again, and once it has built up enough, I will do SomeTHiNG about it. Why do I have to wait? That is the one thing, the question I return to. Why do I wait?

I know I’m lazy, but then, it depends on the task at hand. I was once told (OK, often told) that “We all have to do things we don’t like doing” and the REALLY annoying thing is that I agree. I know that, yet I can’t seem to force myself to do it. At the weekend I get bursts of restlessness, and leap up and do a few things on the ‘list’, but I never get them all done.

Are time-management and prioritising my biggest weaknesses? I don’t think so, professionally I find it easy, and rarely run into problems (well not ones that occur because I haven’t planned). Maybe I need to make my personal time more professional? Hmmm might just be the answer…in which case, I have dinner scheduled, so please excuse me, I must go.