Bliss

I breath in. I breath out. Acutely aware of the depth and length of my breathe as my chest rises and falls, the weight of my limbs on the bed, the nothingness of it all as I relax. Eyes closed, drifting, floating away into my subconscious, that eery half-world between dreams and reality is easily found. Somewhere I can hear relaxing sounds, the person in the room with me moves around slowly, deliberately. Her fingers, warm and oiled, pull gently around my eyes and across my forehead, pausing to circle on my temples. And the world melts away again. It’s only recently that I’ve discovered what bliss actually means. It comes in many forms, but it is recognisable as an …

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Awake awake awake

I’m still not sure what triggers this insomnia, or even if it’s triggered at all. I only know that I’m awake. I’m not complaining, I’ve had almost 6 hours sleep which is more than some people get I know, but it still irks me that these spells happen. I either wake for a couple of hours during the night or, like last night, I struggle to stay asleep for more than 5 hours. It’s not the lack of sleep that bothers me, it’s the impact it has on my energy levels. Everything becomes that little bit more of an effort, and sometimes I’m not convinced I’m always making the best decisions. Life continues, of course, and the new job is …

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