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I’m scared. I have to spend the entire weekend away from my PC. How will I cope? Real-life looms… ominously on the horizon, a couple of nights out, and a visit to the in-laws on their return from holiday. Drinking, good food, good company, I think I’ll struggle through.

Mind you, back is still sore, and I’ve made zero progress on a couple of my pet projects, yet still remain optimistic and with a positive outlook, not sure how I am managing to do that, but it’s not going away, and I’m holding on to it as tightly as I can.

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Dunno why but I think things have taken a turn for the better. A lot of it is gut feel, but it is backed up by some comments I heard, people are listening.

I’m also considering a new career – movie stardom. All started at the doctor’s today, he was a trainee and asked if I minded being filmed for his appraisal. Sure thing – I said. After they adjusted the lighting and the makeup woman finished I felt quite nervous, but think I played my part quite well. Not that it was difficult, dead easy to play a patient at the doctors who has a sore back, when you are, in fact, a patient at the doctors who has a sore back. Hmmm maybe it was just a coincidence. Or maybe I should stop drinking so much coffee.

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bookmark_borderGood, bad, mellow

Napster decision bad, meteor landing intriguing, NBA ALLstar weekend good!

I feel a lot mellower (is that even a word?) now. Not sure whether it was my rant last week, the time I had sitting about thinking when I was prone on my bed, or whether I’ve just reached a point where all I can say is… well if I can’t do it, fuck it.. life goes on. Or maybe it’s a combination of all three. Who knows. I’m getting beyond questioning this kind of mood, just enjoying it while it lasts.

I’m hoping for a few changes over the next couple of weeks, and currently I’m pretty optimistic of pushing things through, have to wait and see though, as no doubt other people have a different idea than I do.

BTW EVHEAD is here for now (DNS probs). (N2S: add EVHEAD to sidebar links, and stop stealing kottke’s abbreviations! 😉

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OK, own up, someone somewhere must’ve linked to my site on Tuesday last week – 70 visits in one day – I think that is a record for this humble little place. Whoever it was, thanks! Drop me a line so I know who you are… of course if it wasn’t a link/mention somewhere then thanks to all of you for dropping by, hope you enjoyed the ‘experience’… LOL

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speechtherapy – what, or whom, makes you feel human?

Good question – my answer “Successes and failures, expectations and disappointments, laughter and tears all make me feel human. The fraility of that humanity is what needs to be kept in perspective.” Although I think DaveZilla said the same thing in a much more concise manner…

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bookmark_borderHazy distance

Did I say too much? I don’t think so, but I did end up ranting and rambling a bit. Best intentions but marred by my own personal desires. I’ll have to wait and see the effects, if and when they happen.

Outstanding issues will be resolved this week and should set my mind at ease. I am acutely aware of my need to find other diversions, hobbies to take me away from this seat, this keyboard, this screen. Plenty of ideas, lack of resources to actually do them. Which seems to be the story of the last year or more.

Still good times on the horizon, of that I am sure. I’m still a bit hazy on what form they will take, but they are coming, one way or another.

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